The Revolving Door

The Revolving Door

I’ve written a lot of not great things about Jerry. I handle rejection with anger because it’s the easiest for me. I’m sure anger and hatred isn’t overly healthy, but I feel it helps me get past things quicker. However, I’ve probably been a bit unfair to him. The truth is, if it hadn’t been for him I would still think nobody would accept all of my moods and chemical imbalances. He was the one that truly opened my eyes to the fact that the right person won’t try to change you or say things like “just be happy.” I know that I can only try to be the best version of me everyday, and try to fight negative thoughts. Some will certainly still bleed through, especially in my writing. For instance, I’ve written quite a bit lately that I have held back in posting to not hurt the other person involved should they read it. However, I don’t really owe him anything, and writing it down is very therapeutic for me, and that’s what I need right now. Continue reading The Revolving Door

IDFWU…but I do

IDFWU…but I do

The most recent sketchball move he made is amazing to me, because it is so insanely stupid. I had asked about his evening, and for whatever reason, that prompted him to send a barrage of pics from his “solo” dinner. He always takes live photos and because I just had a feeling, and I’m smart, I decided to click on them, and the second photo prominently featured a girl’s red-fingernail-polished hand dropping a roll back on the plate, presumably so he could take the super bro-tastic food pic. Continue reading IDFWU…but I do

I Ain’t Sorry

I Ain’t Sorry

I think as women we are so communicative, it is incredibly difficult to enact the power within silence. Whereas men, I think, respond so profoundly to effectively ignoring. It is crazy difficult to do too. In emotional moments, I think we all just want to express our point and be done with it but not saying anything can truly be the most powerful. Continue reading I Ain’t Sorry

It Happens Like That

Why is it always when you give up on romance, and “take a break,” someone comes into your life that throws that plan off? It seems like the second you stop looking that’s when someone very important comes along. I feel so mixed on my recent turn of events given that I was so excited to take a break from romance, and focus on me, but it’s hard to let a good thing pass you by. Continue reading It Happens Like That