Regret
I have been thinking a lot about regret and rejection, and the way the two interface with each other. When … Continue reading Regret
Author: nicoleryson
Sarcastic Sometimes-Sober Serial Dater.
Bad Habits
Old habits are hard to break. One of my absolute worst is to make excuses for someone and try to … Continue reading Bad Habits
Pain is inevitable, suffering is a choice.
Love and Radical Acceptance have both been on my mind. To the first point regarding love…I have come to believe … Continue reading Pain is inevitable, suffering is a choice.
Sunday Scaries
I’ve had a flood of emotions of late. I’ve come to a point where I find no real joy in … Continue reading Sunday Scaries
Progress
I’ve always thought that progress was linear. I feel very comfortable knowing now that there are peaks and valleys, and … Continue reading Progress
Comedy or Tragedy
When I think about all of the intricacies of my interpersonal relationships, I wonder if I’ll look back someday and … Continue reading Comedy or Tragedy
Meh
It’s always the exact same pattern. I meet guy, guy becomes enamored and convinces me he is crazy about me, I start to actually like him and get passed my reservations, guy deals with me for a few months and then dips. I just feel too old and tired to cycle through this routine, which is probably sad given I’m not even 30yrs old yet. Maybe I’m too exhausted in all other areas of life, but at this point I’m pretty convinced no man in the world can inspire me to attempt dating again. Continue reading Meh
That’s gonna be a no…
The ultimate cockblock for me will always be someone passing on me. With the amount of men that circle in and out of my life you would think I’d be better about granting second chances. I just can’t though. To me, I can never again be attracted to somebody that passed on me. I know logically that maybe timing wasn’t right, or this or that, but I have no desire to be with someone that could let me go. It’s the biggest deal breaker, and this is unfortunate, given I can still see the good in people, and what might have been. Once the allotted time (usually 1-2 months) passes for them to come to their senses and make things right comes and goes, I’m just done. Continue reading That’s gonna be a no…
#LiveAuthentic
I truly despise this hashtag. If you are living authentically, I feel you don’t have to broadcast or advertise it. I’ve been reflecting a lot today about the passing of one of my all time favorite storytellers- Anthony Bourdain, and I realized the reason he meant so much to me, was his authenticity. Continue reading #LiveAuthentic
The Revolving Door
I’ve written a lot of not great things about Jerry. I handle rejection with anger because it’s the easiest for me. I’m sure anger and hatred isn’t overly healthy, but I feel it helps me get past things quicker. However, I’ve probably been a bit unfair to him. The truth is, if it hadn’t been for him I would still think nobody would accept all of my moods and chemical imbalances. He was the one that truly opened my eyes to the fact that the right person won’t try to change you or say things like “just be happy.” I know that I can only try to be the best version of me everyday, and try to fight negative thoughts. Some will certainly still bleed through, especially in my writing. For instance, I’ve written quite a bit lately that I have held back in posting to not hurt the other person involved should they read it. However, I don’t really owe him anything, and writing it down is very therapeutic for me, and that’s what I need right now. Continue reading The Revolving Door
